Sunday I was in the bathroom cleaning the tub and had one of those knock-you-on-your-butt strong memories.  It hit me from out of no where and it was so overwhelming I almost started crying.  The events came back to me in such vivid detail that I can’t believe that it’s been probably 8 or more years since they occurred.  I’m not going to bore you or embarrass myself with the details, but I will say that it was all about my ex-husband.  As I finished cleaning the bathroom I brooded over the memory and beat myself up for sticking with him for as long as I did.

After the bathroom sparkled I had to go downstairs to move the laundry to the dryer and had to walk past Waldo and Lily at the kitchen table having lunch.  I rubbed Lil’s head, but didn’t linger in the kitchen.  When I got back upstairs I realized that that brief contact with the two people I love the most in the world was like a breath of fresh air.  The clouds parted and I could see clearly again.

6 years ago I made the easiest decision of my life; I wasn’t going to allow my Ex to ruin another second of my life.  Rather then wallow and berate myself I rearranged our family room.  I felt so much better when Waldo and Lily came upstairs and I got to show off all of my hard work.

My life is so different than it was when that memory originated I can hardly believe the same person lived it.  This memory along with so many more during that time of my life were unpleasant, but I am so grateful for all of the wonderful memories I’ve formed over the last 6 years.

Things That Make Me Happy

My daughter’s crazy laugh

Waking up smashed between Waldo and Lily

Cooking dinner together with Waldo with Lily on my back while we talk about our days

Our family shopping every Saturday

Watching Lily learn new things

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